New home new hope

Getting a job is not as easy as we think, too many hardship to go through in the first phase. I will be strong! Think before doing anything reckless.. i can survive InsyaAllah

That boy

That boy insanely crazy (cho-in)

That boy insanely naughty (woochi)

That boy insanely beautiful (sad eyes)

That boy insanely pitiful (yun-soo)

That boy insanely loyal (song ji won)

That attractive boy who caught my eyes for the first time (jung tae-sung)

He, the boy..

New family

Xpnah aku sangke family aku akan terima one more extra member sbagai addition.

My brother bertunang selepas mendapat bantahan ramai orang. Mungkin ade hikmah. Tunang die pun rajin, jenis tak bercakap kasar. I kind of like her, she's quite nice. Mak aku plak becoming more queen control. Maybe saje nak uji agaknye haha (sabar je lah Aishah.. agaknye semue makcik2 mcm nie kowt)

I hope dorg hepy and kuat dengan dugaan yang mendatang.

Gray hair

Tonight was the first night I got to see one of the rarest gray hair while I comb my hair using hand. I am only 24 years old and this is quite extraordinary for me.

I don't know what to think of it. That silvery hair (looks like one of the Malfoy's), alone with all the black hair. It was kind of sad actually after I read some article relate the gray hair with stress.

You want to eliminate the problem that causes the stress but the evident is there (the gray hair!). I think about how actually you could outrun them. By dyeing your hair?. Is that a denial from the truth?

Well, you could by starting to ignore them and focus not to over think first, right?

Alright that's all for now. See you next time! Sis-fist~

Interview session

I hate interview! Can't we get the job by submitting the resume online and get done with it?

My mind might gone blank.. oh god help me!

Dumbledore's advise

"Do not pity the dead, Harry. Pity the living, and above all, those who live without love... etc

Thus, think of all people who afraid of death and people who suffered terribly of the losses.

Learn to live your life with love...

Killing field and Hannibal

Ape persamaan antara keduanya?

Jawapannya terletak pada ketidak segan silu bila ambil nyawa manusia yang tidak bersalah.

Repulsive. Anger. Hatred.

Stop taking other people life!

Stop being a murderer!

Kerisauan

Kerisauan Ya aku risau. Mengenai seorang insan. Dia dipinggirkan atas kesalahan diri sendiri dan juga kesilapan orang lain. Keadaan yang makin teruk juga menjadi buah mulut. Rakan-rakan terapat menjauh diri, bimbang akan dicemuh orang lain. Dia cuba memekakkan telinga dan melalui kehidupan seharian tanpa menghiraukan mulut-mulut yang berbunyi. Aku sesal kenapa mereka tidak mengerti dan dia juga tidak mahu memahami. Aku bagaikan terkepit. Menyesali. Memandang resah keluhan dia yang semakin susah untuk difahami. Memang betul apa yang kita lakukan perlukan pemahaman daripada orang lain namun jika itu tidak dapat dilakukan... apa lagi harus dilakukan?
Infestasi keburukkan yang dialami mengacau jiwa. Dia perlu dibantu tetapi harus bagaimana? Jika diri ini ditolak tanpa fikir siapa kawan siapa lawan..

Bara yang panas membara

بِسْـــــــــمِ اَللّهِ الرّحْمن الرّحيم 

السَّلاَمُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَاتُهُ 

Wahai rakan2 sekalian, yup aku ade ketenangan sedikit hari nie.. Baru balik dari kolam air panas kampung dusun. Tempat dia not bad bersih dan tersusun walaupun lain sikit dari apa yang bayangkan dekat melaka (kolam air panas gadek).

Balik-balik je rumah tengok cermin aku berderai. Bayangkan betapa busuknye hati adik aku? Memang niat die nak balas dendam. Aku pown rase nak disowned die. Memang dah nampak kenapa die asyik rase keseorangan sebab perangai dia sendiri. Lelaki pown susah nak pandang biler perangai buruk dan pelik.

Aku memang tak baik jugak sebab tue aku sedar diri, tak nak lah lelaki yang baik2 end up dengan aku yang kureng nie. Biar aku try ubah diri daripada dah kawin nnt sume perangai buruk tue still ade. 

Anyway, aku nak g crik cermin muke la.. Dah lah tak bape comey kalo tak makeup, so better makeup hehe

Garlic bread mania

السَّلاَمُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَاتُهُ 

Hi and good day to you all, have you eaten yet? come let me show you one easy recipe of garlic bread! haha Mesti korang ingat nie blog masakan kan?! nope.. actually aku nak beritahu yang aku tersangatlah tergila-gilakan Garlic bread. 

Tadaaa~

Picture of garlic bread (I google XD) from this link

Kesedapan luar biasa dengan kalori yang agak rendah berbanding makanan yang kita selalu makan dan Garlic bread boleh dicicah dengan pelbagai kuah. Nyum nyum!

Aku kongsikan resepi tu kat cnie.. dari blog orang lain sebenarnya hehe

The Mai Kitchen

Sampai sini je entry kali nie. jumpe next time brofist! haha tiru pewdiepie pulak.. ok sisfist!

Crap

I need to find a job with long term dedication to pay my ptptn and saving a bit for my future plan

Convocation

Just a few days left for my grande day ever! My C.O.N.V.O.C.A.T.I.O.N DAY. I feel like i need to savour that day and reminicense about how i pull through from the hardest time going to class, doing the assignment and taking exams.

I can say i do it sometime seriously and sometime a bit not too serious and i certainly doing my best eventhough only in my part. "U got to be kidding me u do it half ass then claim u are the reason we get high marks.." Ok i'm kiddin.. that kind of thing never happen to my group.

We kind of cooly let it go and celebrate all we want. freedom! hahaha

I am quite terrible in expressing my feeling to them so i hope they could forgive me for all the wrongdoing i ever done for the 4 years we known each other. I hope I could tell them again and again.

Ok i know it is old news.. this is old picture i want to post.

Sorry about the picture *blink2* picture from 2011

Four long years have finally came to end with us separated. I hope one day we could gather back and spend a good times together. Atleast before one of us get married right hehe

Going under

I am having new brand of concern.. What is it call? Afraid for not getting married with a guy. People will NOT certainly getting married to their job. Because it may give them happiness but money cannot love you, cannot hear you, certainly cannot give you what human can give you.

Some people will call this concern as one type of useless concern as they might have a lot of scandal to begin with (i call it they don't have enough loyalty in their gene). You can scoff all you want. I do think about this as going on with my hobby. I love to watch anime and read manga/manhwa and sometime too absorbed then keep talking about it all the time!

I need to tell people that i love to social too but i am afraid they have this stereotype for a geek like me. Yupe, there i say it. I may not look like one, i am quite a geek myself. The proof is i have been criticize by my best friend to believe only that what i read rather than knowing it from others people. I still don't get it why she angry for what i say when i am the one to do the explaination. This is because i had a new turtle pet and we argue because of its food.  

I didn't do cosplay (eventhough i'm interested) and don't ask me why. I just can't. I look perfectly like simple human being but why people afraid to approach me? Do i look like some burglar or something. I have guys said to me i was harder to approach. Like you and your beloved celebrity. You can't just and meet them. What a big fuss about it because i am neither a celebrity or have any reputation. They just don't i think, i mean they don't just know people enough but still said something that can make them simply judge that person.

I don't want to shut people out and i sincerely do want to have a nice boyfriend. But i don't think they might consider me if they know about my likes and dislikes. *sigh* . -_-"

K happy ramadhan and happy fasting everyone..

Now i'm reading kamesama hajimemashita manga, nice cute adorable story with a lot of cute humor >_< hahaha~ 

New page = New me?

I finally finish my studies with a not-bad grade and most definitely an A for my research project paper.I deserve it.. My hard work and hard to pleased Supervisor made it more meaningful. Alhamdulillah

Now i need to think and review back my goal. How i'm gonna spend my whole life after this. This is suck.. I'm suck at making these serious plan. Some people had it easy, that is making me envy of them. For sure they didn't realize how lucky their life was.

I have so much insecurity in me that i don't need people to tell me that i was having these problem. You can call me names but i still won't give up despite having surrounded by all the negativity. I hope my family and friends can have much secure life and happy. 

How many more i need to endure to feel free? Do i need to struggle like Lee Yeon Jae in Scent of Women? Or just make it more troublesome by trying to find my dream guy and try to look pretty 24/7?!

I need to change.. Or do i?

P/s: my daily schedule..

Sherlock

Just a random picture of him and his brother.. I love this series so much that i didn't missed any of the episodes.

Mencari

Kelibat berpusing-pusing mencari arah tanpa berniat untuk bertanya sesiapa. Hanya bergantung kepada gerak hati yang semakin mengkhianati dirinya. Untuk kali terakhirnya dia berazam lalu mendekati seorang ibu tua.

"Toilet kat mane makcik?"

P/s: jgn malu bertanya nanti sesat jln hehe

Loveless

Final Fantasy Addicted

 LOVELESS

Prologue (Poem)
When the war of the beasts brings about the world's end
The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting

Prologue (Interpreted)
When the war of the beasts brings about the world's end
The goddess descends from the sky

Wings of light and dark spread afar
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting

Act I (Poem)
Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take it to the sky
Ripples form on the water's surface
The wandering soul knows no rest.

Act I (Interpreted)
The infinite mystery
The gift of the goddess is what the three men seek
But their fates are scattered by war

One becomes a hero, one wanders the land
And the last is taken prisoner

But the three are still bound by a solemn oath
To seek the answer together, once again

Act II (Poem)
There is no hate, only joy
For you are beloved by the goddess
Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds

Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul
Pride is lost
Wings stripped away, the end is nigh

Act II (Interpreted)
Though the prisoner escapes, he is gravely wounded
His life is saved, however
By a woman of the opposing nation

He begins a life of seclusion with her
Which seems to hold the promise of eternal bliss

But as happiness grows, so does guilt
Of not fulfilling the oath to his friends

Act III (Poem)
My friend, do you fly away now?
To a world that abhors you and I?
All that awaits you is a somber morrow
No matter where the winds may blow

My friend, your desire
Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess

Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return

Act III (Interpreted)
As the war sends the world hurtling towards destruction
The prisoner departs with his newfound love
And embarks on a new journey

He is guided by hope that the gift will bring bliss
And the oath that he swore to his friends

Though no oath is shared between the lovers
In their hearts they know they will meet again

Act IV (Poem)
My friend, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honor remains
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess

My soul, corrupted by vengeance
Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey
In my own salvation
And your eternal slumber

Legend shall speak
Of sacrifice at world's end
The wind sails over the water's surface
Quietly, but surely

Act V (Poem)
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the dew that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice

A great story can bring so much emotion.. i love that kind of Movie/drama. I hope people will continue to make them ^ ^

Depend to much?!

Assalamualaikum peeps!

kat sini stil 10.10 am so gud mornin you'als XD. Semenjak cuti nie aku semakin malas. Hasrat hati nak berkerja hilang terbang bagaikn habuk yg disapu bulu ayam cap itik. Bermadah berhelah plak aku.

Namun begitu, wahai readers sekalian. Ini bukanlah tujuan post ini. Yang nak disampaikn bukan mengenai aku tetapi mengenai adik aku. Yupe, my youngest lil bro, yang baik hati sangat! (seriously ini bukan sindiran).

Niat dihati nak tolong insan yang lemah especially perempuan, memang mulia tetapi daripada perspektif perempuan jugak seperti aku. Memang nampak perempuan tue extra menggedix and vengong terlebih tambahan pula menyusahkan serta pain in de arses!

Dengan adenye perangai yang mudah nak tolong orang nie adik aku tolong die walaupun terpakse pergi jauh untuk ambil die. Yang paling bizar nye adalah adik aku dah ade girlfriend! yes, die dah ada.

Aku seriously mintak kat perempuan diluar sana yang suke menyusahkan ramai lelaki. Stop la tabiat buruk tue, pergilah belajar berdikari and jangan menyusahkan orang lain. Korang pun tambah ilmu sikit. Nampak lembik sangat. kalo aku nie lelaki, memang aku doa banyak-banyak supaya tak jumpe spesis macam korang. Mintak jauh! Amin..

Final vs Berjimba

Assalamualaikum peeps!

Minggu final exam memang memenatkan and doa-doalah tak sakit. Pening la kalau sakit. Yelah, mane nak tahan makan ubat mengantuk bila nak study. Jawapan yang sangat tak sehat adalah makan ubat dengan nescafe or kopi.. (gulp) pastu pengsan!

Ok2 not to worry kalau tak buat la.. tp kalau buat jugak tanggung sendiri meh haha

So, bru je lepas download a few korean and UAI videos.. nak tgk ke tak nak.. nak tgk ke tak nak... ermmm.. tggl 2 paper je agy.. hehe dugaan...

Semoga final nie aku pass with rainbow colours!