New page = New me?

I finally finish my studies with a not-bad grade and most definitely an A for my research project paper.I deserve it.. My hard work and hard to pleased Supervisor made it more meaningful. Alhamdulillah

Now i need to think and review back my goal. How i'm gonna spend my whole life after this. This is suck.. I'm suck at making these serious plan. Some people had it easy, that is making me envy of them. For sure they didn't realize how lucky their life was.

I have so much insecurity in me that i don't need people to tell me that i was having these problem. You can call me names but i still won't give up despite having surrounded by all the negativity. I hope my family and friends can have much secure life and happy. 

How many more i need to endure to feel free? Do i need to struggle like Lee Yeon Jae in Scent of Women? Or just make it more troublesome by trying to find my dream guy and try to look pretty 24/7?!

I need to change.. Or do i?

P/s: my daily schedule..